The clearest joy
is the ceasing of great pain.
When the iron bell rises from the head,
when the clanging shock subsides along the nervews,
when the body slides free
like a worm from a hook,
how the putrid city air
bubbles in the lungs
Light glides in honey over the eyes.
The austere ceiling is made of meringue.
The body, uncoils, uncoils
wonderfully empty like a lily.
Breathing is dancing.
Dumbly and wholly
like the basil plant on the sill
I lift my nose into the sun.
- m. piercy
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The clouds have started to part, counts have begun to rise. And I've finally found myself able to get out of bed, walk outside, ride on the stationary bike, and begin to resume to normal eating. Slowly, I rebuild myself emotionally for round two of ICE. In which I will be admitted this Wednesday, February 20th. They will keep me, most likely until the 24th. Also, after meeting with doctors this past week. The PET scan - which will determine how much treatment I will receive before transplant - is set for March 4th.
Please send out kind thoughts, and sincere love to some of my fellow friends, and hodgkins warriors, Steve, who is undergoing treatment as we speak for ABVD chemotherapy is getting a PET scan on Monday.
My Boston girl, Kelly, is getting her required three month check-in PET scan this Thursday.
And lastly, but certainly not least, Darrel, is going in for his PET on Tuesday. Which will be around nine months post stem cell transplant for him. Please keep these three, near and dear to your heart this week.
All my love,
to all of you,
B
10 comments:
Hi Bekah - we have a lot of pom pom shaking to do this week for our friends having scans. They are being held near and dear and being sent positive vibes for good news. So glad to hear the fog is lifting for you so you can enjoy a few days of comfortable joy before round #2. Keep your determination and fighting spirit raised high...we've only begun this battle together...we are determined to win it with you. Love you my friend....HUGE ((HUGS))as always.
Susan
Hey Bekah,
I'm with Susan in that I'll be thinking about you this week as you face the next round of treatment and our other friends who go for scans.
You're doing terrific! :)
Much love,
Duane
Hi Bekah
First of all...I am very sad to read about all your trouble with hodgkins, but you are a trooper. I love your poetry. My name is Tracy and about a year ago I was diagnosed with the hodge as well. i was in stage IIA, NSHD. I underwent 12 rounds of ABVD and have had 2 clean PET scans. however, I am having a HELL of a time living with sode effects of chemo and FEAR that it will reoccur. It has been a long journey for my family and I. I am 29 and have a 2 and 4 year old, never in a million years would I have dreamed I'd be "blessed" with a cancer diagnosis at 29. It is life changing. I was wondering, what stage were you in at first diagnosis, how long were you in remission, what stage was it in at reoccurence and HOW did you know it came back? there is nothing out there telling us what tell tale signs of reoccurence are and I am VERY anxiuos. Anyhoo...keep up your positive attitiude and I hope we can stay in touch. My e-mail address is bogi_nic@verizon.net. Hang in there Bekah, I've added you to my prayer list along with myself. ha!
Make the most of the good times on this rollercoaster ride, B.......you really are doing amazingly.
You know everyone you mentioned, alongside YOU, will be very close to my heart, not only this week but for many years and years to come...........xx
bek,
it's so good to hear you're feeling sort of ok. i love you and think of you all the time. good luck on wednesday.
-aly
ps. mad props on the marge piercy poem. we're related for a reason.
Glad to hear you're up and about hun! Thanks for the well wishes, I'll take em!
Bekah,
I am thinking of you as you go through this. Good luck with your second treatment, I know you will be fine. I am a lurker on your site and a partner to a fellow hodgkin's fighter. Check out her site at candacekickscancer.blogspot.com
To walking! To riding! To eating!
To life! (L'chayim!)
Dear Bekah,
Keeping you and your dear friends in my heart and thoughts.
Good luck with the next treatment, be sure I'll be checking and waiting for a post to see how you're doing!
Hugs,
Sivan.
Love the poem and you look beautiful in the photos Bekah.
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