Ebb and Flow...

As September awakens it will definitely be a huge transition month.  However in some ways, that is the life of a cancer patient.  Ebb and flow, push and pull -- finding the balance between the worlds we straddle. Before the latest news I was preparing/hoping for full time work, a move within the next few weeks, and tying up loose ends here in good old Doylestown, awaiting... some kind of movement into my professional life.

The goals are all still the same, but sometimes priorities have to be viewed differently and one must pause.  So here I am, doing just that.  Now that I am officially off the steroid load after four days of non-stop eating, and a hard, hard crash today.  I begin focus on yoga, action, peace, nourishment/food as much as possible to rid my body of the immobility that surrounded it throughout the last two months.  More than not though, I just wish my body would catch up with my mind -- here I am ready to be on the move, but a few other things need to transpire before I catapult my way into the future: whatever that may be.  

Fortunately, my "B" symptoms of night sweats and fevers have subsided due to the steroids.  And our hopes are obviously that they stay this way.  It appears with paper work in check I will start the Revlimid, also known as Lenalidomide (new drug of choice) on September 10th.  Most likely it will take 2-4 weeks for my body to regulate to see what I am capable of handling on a day to day routine and basis (work, exercise, side effects, ect).  This is the 'patient' part of being a cancer patient where I'd like to push the fast forward button -- but we all can't be so lucky. It's where my practice in this world, literally takes the most patience out of me...

My hope is that with the opening of Fall, I will find a position that suits my body, my needs, and that this small oral pill will not even conflict with the daily life I planned out for myself since graduation.  So here is hoping for new beginnings on September 10th... and a very, gentle, loving transition into Autumn. 

A few quick notes as we close down summer: 

• We are also taking food donations/drop and go meals throughout the next month to buff me up as I rebound, so please email me by clicking here if you're interested in contributing

•  If you would like to continue to read this blog, once it is private in October, please click here. 

• Lastly, a huge, huge thank you for all who contributed to our travels to Texas.  Again, if it weren't for each of you, I definitely would not be continuing treatment, and venturing into the fall with such high hopes.

above all else, e.e. cummings reminds us:

life (who never grows old) is 
always beautiful and that
nobody beautiful ever hurries


Sending Love and Light,

B.