Bad news bears.

After a quick check up at DF, for a PET/CT scan to assure that the Doxil did it's job, we were a little surprised by what the scan showed.

Unfortunately, after only a month off treatment -- I have lots of increase with more nodes, and disease above and below the diaphragm yet again, with multiple nodes ranging from 1-3.5 cm in diameter. I expected some increase, but not quite as quickly, as my disease is progressing...

So, alas, my fellow friends and family -- I will be returning to you all, and writing a little sooner than anticipated. During October I will be focused on finding a new trial (most likely in NY), and figuring out once again how to juggle life, class, internship, friends, and treatment.

Most likely the first week or two of November, I will begin somewhere, with something. So, stay tuned.


For now, I'm going to enjoy the next six weeks as best as I can.  I can say, I am damn lucky, though on several accounts:

1) By the time I start a new treatment, I will have three months off from any drugs. That is a 1/4 of a year, and had an A-mazing time at that. I am so grateful that I was able to rebuild my muscle mass, find yoga, and get myself and my energy started up to enter in this new treatment.

2) There are a lot more options now, then there were last fall -- clinical trial wise. I am always, so, so grateful for choices and options.

3). My internship, supervisors, classes, staff, and peers are being amazing about supporting me through this next trial, while I attempt a 25 hour internship, four classes, a social life, and treatments. How lucky am I to be surrounded by people who understand, and help?

4). I'm alive. I'm here. I'm helping. I'm doing good work. And in general, I haven't been this happy in a while, now that I am finally back in the field, being with kids, and sucking all that i can out of each and everyday.


I know some might be disappointed by this news, as we did think I would be able to take off till mid/end of December. But, hey, at least I got some time off, and at least I'm here, with options in front of me, enjoying my life. And for all of this, I am grateful.

If time allows, please visit Adrienne's blog again (post below) to continue to send prayers, positive thoughts, and warm, comforting vibes to her and Alison as they are fighting tooth and nail for A's counts to come up, and chemo to begin working on these tumors.

Thinking of you ladies - everyday.
Thinking of all of you, lots.
Hope everyone is doing well.

Signing off till late October,

B