First, I was able to see my best friend, Darrel. Who is also my lovely transplant coach in Ohio.. This being the exact time last year he began his SCT, it gives me confidence and peace of mind, to go through mine. He is a source of knowledge, every transplant patient wishes they had...
Then, I was able to head back to Boston for a night...
To pack up my entire life with 14 of my closest friends. I am not only blessed, but proud to say that these people are my friends, and other family. After packing we were able to have one last dinner together - in which all of them made me laugh until I cried, and began to realize again how incredibly lucky I am, to have each of them in my life. As, most of them have watched me battle diseases since my freshmen year of college. I can not imagine how difficult it is for them to watch me leave, again. To leave is one thing, to be left is another.
Some of you may say I am strong -
but it is because of their strength, that I am who I am. That I am ready, for Wednesday.
One of my dearest friends, John, also has saved my life over and over again the last few years. As he drove me, and all my lovely furniture back to good old Doylestown, PA. After a six hour drive, he then with others, helped unload my entire life back into my parents house. Not many people are able to pack up their entire life in one night, go out to dinner with all of their best friends, and leave the next morning for a new life - keeping a smile on their face. But, with John's help it was possible. Without him, my room, comfy clothes, and sanity would not be where they are right now.
Lastly, my family - from all ends. The Furey's, Rosan's, immediate and extended. Have once again up and lifted their life and heart to prepare me... once again, for chemotherapy. I will always be forever in debt to who they are, and how they have kept me smiling, all these years.
In addition, loose ends have been tied..
Boston move: check
Dental work: check
House cleaned from top to bottom: check
Seeing and spending time with best friends: check
I believe your mental state is one of our greatest weapons, when fighting something as aggressive as cancer. My mind is beginning to clear, my will to fight gains more strength everyday, and the calm before the storm has begun.
- B
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Today I miss: being young, without worries
Today I am grateful for: the dental team and my aunt and uncle who made it possible for me to go into chemo without any infections
Today I smile for: phone calls from good friends all over the east coast, and the most beautiful flowers.. from family across the pond ;)
7 comments:
Hi sweet Bekah...thinking of you as you tie up the loose ends before starting the next battle. You are blessed with so many true friends and a wonderful family...as they are blessed to have you to enrich their lives. As always - much love and huge warm ((hugs)) of support and friendship.
Susan
Sorry Bekah, have to throw the BS flag - While you get strength from your friends, its pretty obvious you are a strong woman on your own as well ;-)
Thinking back, I remember you always working on some paper for school in addition to working, babysitting, exercising, and taking care of john, iris, and myself = ). I remember this because your blog and emails have struck me for more than the power of what you face ahead and have had to face in the past. You are an incredibly eloquent and impressive writer Bek. I am moved by the way you write and I pray each day that you will be able to share this talent with many others. I am thinking of you always and I look forward to reading your entries. I also want to thank you for how much thought you have given others when you are battling so much already. It is honestly an incredible thing to be able to read about your treatment, thoughts, wishes, hopes. You have taught me more about people in your few short entries than I have learned in years. So thank you for continuing to be a teacher. Your incredible pal. I miss you very very much.
Bekah - I'm so glad you have so much support. You're so loved because you love others so much - you get 110% because you GIVE 110%....your friendship means just as much to your friends as theirs does to you.......so reap the rewards from being such a beautiful person, B...........look forward to meeting you, sooooo much!............xx
Dear Bekah,
Wanted to let you know you are in my heart and thoughts. Every time I open my blog page, I also check yours (that means every day ;). Sending positive energy your way, wishing you all the good and looking forward to reading your next post.
Sivan (Bri's sis-in-law).
good luck tomorrow
j
Good luck...thinking of you and holding you close in mind and spirit!
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